T- minus 1 Week

I have exactly one week left until my daughter turns one…let the crying ensue.

It seems so surreal. For the longest time it was strange to think I’d actually given birth, became a mom, and had a daughter of my own. (Some days it still feels surreal!) And now I have to wrap my head around the concept that she’s not really a baby anymore but on her way to becoming a toddler. Waah, it’s not fair.

My friends try to tell me that it’s an exciting time, not a sad time. But it is sad. Yes, I love all the new things she’s doing and ways she’s growing and changing, but I’ll never have my cuddly little baby back. Not to mention that she’ll be a teenager before I blink. I know I shouldn’t be complaining — I’ve had the opportunity to spend a lot more time with her than most moms get because they have real jobs in the real world, but I want more time. I look at pictures of her from a few months ago and I hardly remember her chubby cheeks and roly-poly body. The way she cooed or flailed her arms around as if they weren’t her own.

It’s such a weird thing to be a parent. One minute you’re laughing hysterically filled to the brim with joy and the next you’re bawling your eyes out for no apparent reason. Just your everyday schizo.

I’m going to try my hardest not to act like a complete nutcase on her birthday. I’m excited for the huge milestone, but I might need to be shot in the ass with a tranquilizer dart especially once the singing starts.

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10 thoughts on “T- minus 1 Week

  1. Oh my God, I too cried when the singing started. What the hell is it about that song anyway! It’s such an emotional time. Be proud of her, be proud of yourself and cherish the moment. Hugs!

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    • Thanks so much! I am excited for the big day…still can’t believe her birthday week has started. Thanks for telling me to cherish the moment, that could have easily been forgotten in the shock that she’s actually turning one. : )

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  2. I think I’ve said pretty much all of these exact things. My daughter is only 8 months but I’m already feeling the same way. And it’s even worse when you know it’s your last kid. Not only do I feel sad about never having her be little and cuddly and sweet but not having any baby at all again. Good luck getting through the big day! Hopefully the joy will outweigh the sadness. 🙂

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  3. My daughter will be 1 in April and I’m already feeling this way. Every day I ask her what’s the rush little one, take your time! But she’s sprouting hair and teeth and moving and shaking all through the house. Thanks for posting so I can commiserate!

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  4. Oh, lordy. I was SO there on my Monster’s 1st birthday, even though I didn’t let it show on the outside! Of course…cool, calm, collected. Psshh. Inside, I was a big blubbering mess! I kept thinking, though, about the exciting new stages of his life yet to come, and that got me through. Happy almost birthday to your sweet little one! xoxo

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    • Thanks so much! I plan on being the same as you — cool and calm on the outside and a huge mess on the inside. Maybe we’ll be laughing too hard to cry when she finally gets to tear into her cake. She’s an eater so it should be fun! : )

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